My God, My God, Why Have You Forsaken Me?!

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Or, Living With Three U. Bags;
Don’t Let Me Down!

β€œNow, from the sixth hour, there was darkness over the whole land until the ninth hour. And about the ninth hour, Jesus cried out loudly, saying, ‘Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani? ‘ that is, ‘My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Matthew 27:45-47 (also Mark 15:33-34)

No, I have not become religious, nor am I comparing myself to Jesus on the cross! I’ve just always been fortunate that my guardian angel has protected and supported me through troubling times. But this year, I feel she has ultimately let me down, and I wonder why!
After much consideration, I have decided to provide a brief updateβ€”not because I seek sympathy or believe everyone is wondering where I am! It is simply to maintain our connection. I also apologise for my infrequent presence on your sites, such as likes, comments, etc.

This illustration depicts a man wearing a robe and carrying a urine bag hooked to a catheter.

Well, everything seemed stable to me, which gave me hopeβ€”but it turned out not to be! I have struggled with a catheter in my stomach for the last two months, and after visiting the doctor to replace it, everything went awry, and I had to be taken to hospital with a fever of 40 degrees. There, I underwent several treatments with antibiotics and had two additional catheters placed in my kidneys; now, I have to do a threesome several times!


My PSA blood levels have risen in the hospital, causing a significant delay. The doctors need to determine whether these levels are due to my inflammation or if I have prostate cancer. I left the hospital a few weeks ago and am currently at home. Although my blood levels were down last week, they have increased again, necessitating a sample to be taken from my prostate. A neighbour suggested that these three catheters could also cause inflammation, which might be the cause. Still, I assume that testing for suspected cancer is more beneficial for the doctors, right?

The latest update is that, after consulting with the other doctors at the hospital, my doctor called to inform me that my PSA level is not overly concerning just yet. They plan to proceed with the surgery as scheduled, which will take place at the end of April. This means I will need to struggle with my three catheters for the next six weeks!

Look after yourselves everyone, and have a great time!

49 thoughts on “My God, My God, Why Have You Forsaken Me?!”

  1. Dear Aladin, thank you for sharing such an honest and heartfelt update, and a photo of yourself, too! What an incredibly tough start to this year you’re having! It takes immense courage to open up about the challenges you’re facing, and your words reflect both your strength and resilience.

    The metaphor of your guardian angel resonates deeply – it’s a reminder that even in moments of doubt, your ability to persevere shines through. The struggles with your health sound incredibly tough, but your determination to maintain connection and share your journey is so inspiring.

    I hope the upcoming surgery brings much relief and clarity, and that your doctors can guide you toward healing. In the meantime, please know that your presence, even if infrequent, is most valued and appreciated. But why not take time off the online world, find a good book, write one.

    Sending you much strength and healing as you navigate this chapter. Look after yourself my dear friend, and take things one step at a time. Love and light, Deborah and Lin xx

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    • Thank you both, my lovely angels. Your words inspire me to rise and stand on my own two feet. I know I haven’t been fortunate to face this issue, as it takes so long to resolve. Nevertheless, I do my utmost! Sending love and immense gratitude to both of you.πŸ€—β€οΈπŸ™
      PS: As I mentioned to you previously, I have serious obligations to my Iranian friends and do not wish to let them down. I hope the women’s revolution succeeds, and I can finally take a break!βœŒοΈπŸ’•

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  2. I am terribly sorry to hear that you have not yet recovered

    Unfortunately sometimes problems pile up on top of problems: in Italy we have a saying that could be translated as “it rains on the wet” –

    Sending you lots of love, dear Aladin

    PS Catheters can cause various inflammations: I know because it happened to my dad

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  4. Sending love, dear Aladin. Sorry you must write under far less than ideal circumstances. I currently have several family members in the hospital. My Grandfather died this morning. So I’ve spent a lot of time in the hospital visiting lately. I feel your pain. I’m so glad you are still writing and sharing your story. Keep writing and sharing your beautiful soul with usπŸ’™πŸ™πŸ––

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    • Thanks ever so much, mate! I’m truly sorry for your loss. I hope he had a good life and that his soul rests in peace. I often found myself in hospital visiting dear family members, but now it’s my turn! Nevertheless, your kind words provide me with hope. Take care. πŸ™πŸ––πŸ‘

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  7. Aww, sending love and stuff, and very much hope things will turn out fine… and rather soon. Your doctor sounds good. Crossing fingers for you, dear Aladin.

    PS – those two cartoons were great – a bit like on the bright side of life (Monty Python)

    πŸ˜ŠπŸ’–πŸ˜‰

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  11. OH BOY!

    I understand your why.

    Talk about an adventure you didn’t want to have!

    The next weeks will go quickly, as time seems to move rapidly at this time of life.

    It’s about your mind and spirit in the meantime.

    Mind over matter… so keep communicating and getting supportive feedback. That will enhance the spirit.

    Thank you for taking the brave time to fill us in. You look quite well in the pic, as cute as ever. Is cute okay for a guy?

    Write me if you want! A few notes back and forth might help? You know how to find my email in your comments page, right?

    β¦πŸŒΉπŸ‘πŸŒΉβ¦

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    • If you say “cute,” I shall enjoy it immenselyβ€”my lovely Resa. That pyjama is very practical as well, featuring several pockets for hanging bags!
      You’re right; I took a lot of courage to write this post, and I’m glad I did.
      I would like to write to you, though I’m looking a bit amateur to find your Email on my comment page!? If you want mine, it is my nickname here on Gmail.com
      However, thank you, my wise friend.
      πŸŒΊπŸŒΉπŸ’•πŸ™β€οΈβ€οΈ

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  13. Arohii's avatar Arohii

    I’m sorry to hear that you’re unwell. Wishing you a smooth and speedy recovery. Take care, rest well, and know that you’re in my thoughts. Hoping to see you back to full health soon!

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  14. Oh, Aladin. I’m so sorry to hear about your health troubles. Three catheters sounds awful. But for six weeks … hang in there. At least there’s a hopeful end in sight for that. I’m glad that your doctor isn’t too worried about your PSA levels yet. My husband had prostate cancer and they caught it early enough that he’s fine now. I hope the same for you. Take good care of yourself during these difficult days. Thinking of you, my friend.

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  16. Oh my, Aladin, it was really hard to hit the “like” button on this. I am so sooo sorry for your current predicament, but hold onto this hope: you are alive in the 21st century where doctors can do amazing things and people make amazing recoveries. I will send prayers and light your way. The universe supports you in all ways so have faith! xoxoxo

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  17. Greetings, Alladin,

    Praying for your speedy recovery and health. Please do not worry.

    Everything will be fine. This testing time too shall pass and you will be blessed with fine days ahead.

    My family joins me in sending healing energies to you. All your reports will be normal.

    Prayers and healing energies, 🀲 🀲

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      • Greetings, Alladin,

        I hope you are fine.

        Our prayers continue for your infinite health, joy, peace, and flawless faith. Everything will be fine.

        I frugally access my wordpress and hence the delay in my response.

        πŸ•ŠπŸ•ŠπŸŒΏπŸŒΏ Healing energies and sincere prayers, πŸ•ŠπŸ•ŠπŸŒΏπŸŒΏ

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      • That’s no problem; you are always welcome. I will carry your prayers with me until the end of April when I have surgeryβ€”sending immense gratitude. Sincerely, Aladin. πŸ™πŸ₯°πŸ™πŸ’–πŸŒΉ

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      • Greetings, Aladin

        I hope you are fine. I al extremely sorry for the delayed response.

        I am a recluse. I go on long spells of silence. I hardly use phones and other apps. I practice meditation and universal prayers for each and every biodiversity species everyday for a minimum of half an hour.

        Aladin, the journey here is ephemeral and for the very brief spell here we can sprinkle joy, peace, and hope everywhere. They have a ripple effect.

        I silently continue to pray for your best health always. All will be fine. Please stay blessed always.

        Kind regards, sincere prayers, and healing energies.

        πŸ•ŠπŸ•ŠπŸ•ŠπŸŒΏπŸŒΏπŸŒΏ

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      • Oh, my dear and lovely friend. Your kind and gentle words are truly timeless and always a delight to receive. I completely understand why you’d want to distance yourself from the terrible things happening in the world and focus on such positive practices for your own well-being. Thank you so much for your kind wishes, and I send you the same, hoping you stay safe and healthy, my dear friend. πŸ™πŸ™πŸ€—πŸƒ

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      • Greetings, Aladin,

        I hope all is well. Thank you very much for your kind response. I hope your health is improving and my sincere prayers that you find infinite joy, best health, and peace always.

        In silence, meditation, and our dearest Mother Earth like mountains, rivers, oceans, and gardens I find truest delight.

        The whole universe is within us.

        My extrinsic search has stopped.

        If we understand ourselves, practice self-compassion, self-care, and self-esteem it is more than enough.

        Please stay blessed always, Aladin. All will be fine.

        Kind regards,
        A fellow pilgrim…..

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  19. Hi Aladin, how are the treatments going? I know it must be difficult. I wanted to send you some love and support today and thank you for your passion, art, and philosophical brilliance – all that you have shared with me, with us over the years.πŸ™πŸ––

    I returned to this post also because I like your new Beatles quote at the top of your site page, “Nowhere Man” John Lennon is an absolute legendπŸ€“πŸŽΈπŸ€™

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    • And I am very grateful to have a friend like you, mate. I am trying to endure all the trouble I face with these tubes and look forward to next week when I will have surgery with, hoping for better days! 😁
      Oh yes, the Nowhere Man, with whom I have always felt a close connection! Thank you, my dear friend. πŸ™β€οΈπŸ––πŸ™

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