Turn on, Tune in, Drop out! This World is not enough!

Honestly, the idea to write these memories was because I wanted to talk about the effect of psychedelic drugs on our unconsciousness. I have already had the idea a long time ago to write about this period of my life, but I was not sure if I should or even could talk about it. Of course not because I am shy or afraid doing so; it is just because of society, whether they understand correctly. I have once or twice shared my thought with some people about this issue and noticed how they reacted; they believed I’m making advertisements on this theme. No, it’s not my intention!

Anyway, I have developed myself in my way of making music, I got a big set of drums and began to play as a professional, and Al and I put our differences aside. There’s a friend of mine who played the guitars and we had got many performances together, within music bands or even alone as a duo on the stage. We had a lot of fun those days, and the only drug we have used was hash or marijuana. Those were the days

But my musical career has not lasted so long because our mother became sick and the diagnosis was blood cancer. And it took only some months, till she left us. I was in my highest hippy times those days, and it broke my heart, but on the other hand, this brought Al and me closer to each other.

The door had been opened and we were being involved in many kinds of drugs which I’d call this “our common riots”. That was after we’d lost our mother and we wanted to hide in our hut; hide from family and the world, and just wanted being left alone. Among the drugs there were some dangerous ones which were unavoidable; like the opium or the heroin, that I’d say, we were lucky to get rid of them, of course, we had needed for it many years. In between, we had also experienced the LSD, this one I’d never regret. It helped us to get a wider vision towards life, and death. In my opinion, it can still be used as a medical solution for many different psychedelics disease.

Some people may think that we don’t need any kind of drugs to reach out to the inner mind. I met many people to discuss this theme. One of them was a Shamanist, who told me that she had never needed such a substance (like Ayahuasca) to get to the other side, it only required dancing with special music. She said that she could convince me if I would join her once. I liked the idea, we met in her apartment and danced almost through the night. It was a very nice and unforgettable experience for me and in the end, we had wonderful sex. Although, what I meant was another kind of trips to reach out the inner soul. And it needs drugs but, a well made and professional.

Another example: when I was busy in my full job, I had a customer, a psychologist, every time that she was in my car, we had talked on our way about people and the world, in-between, we became so much closer than we have also talked about our pasts, losses, and the experiences in our youth. I told her about ours (Al’s and mine) addictions time, and she told me about her sister’s (she had nothing to do with drugs herself), but when I told her about our experiences on LSD and the famous Dr Timothy Leary’s ideas, she became very sad, I was surprised and wanted to know the reason why. She raised her wet eyes towards me and said; no! His idea killed my sister, she followed him blindly and finally committed suicide! Of course, it was like a shock for me and I couldn’t say a word anymore though, I am still convinced that it is not the fault of this or that ideas, it is the comprehension of the ideas and the way how to use them.

John Lennon insisted that his song; Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds is not about LSD, though I think there’s something in it!

Al and I had about nine times practice on LSD, the beginning was the enjoyment of the lights and the music. We have comprehended that sometimes we might not be aware of how deeply we would feel the arts when we looked at like a painting or listen to a song. And when we’ve reached the eighth or ninth time, we could even separate our souls from our bodies. (It was winter and I was able to let the cold pass by me like an object!) We have found out the connection between them, and finally, understood the power of our souls. Sorry, It is very hard for me to explain or put in the word.

As you might notice, the quotation which I’ve written under the title of my blog; “Turn on, Tune in, Drop out”, is from Timothy Leary. Timothy Francis Leary was an American psychologist and writer known for his strong advocacy of psychedelic drugs. Evaluations of Leary are polarized, ranging from bold oracle to publicity hound. He was “a hero of American consciousness”, according to Allen Ginsberg, and Tom Robbins called him a “brave neuronaut”. Wikipedia

We always have urged people: Don’t take LSD unless you are very well prepared, unless you are specifically prepared to go out of your mind. Don’t take it unless you have someone that’s very experienced with you to guide you through it. And don’t take it unless you are ready to have your perspective on yourself and your life radically changed, because you’re gonna be a different person, and you should be ready to face this possibility. CBC Documentary: How To Go Out of Your Mind: The LSD Crisis (1966)


He had not got as famous to reach the whole world; we didn’t know him in Iran those days until we heard this song by Moody Blues Album: Legend Of Mind

Actually, the main goal belongs to Albert Hofmann, who discovered or better to say the invented the LSD.

Albert Hofmann was a Swiss chemist known best for being the first known person to synthesize, ingest, and learn of the psychedelic effects of lysergic acid diethylamide. Hofmann was also the first person to isolate, synthesize, and name the principal psychedelic mushroom compounds psilocybin and psilocin. Wikipedia

I hope this long story did not bother or anger you because it does seem like an advertisement for drugs! I have just written about my experiences and over that my opinion. I wish you all Love & peace and be safe. I end this trilogy with another quotation of Terence Mckenna; I think he doesn’t need to be introduced.

It might be unnecessary to note that today it will be only one post from me. I’ve got an operation on my forehead on Thursday, to rid a big pimple and I am a bit tired. I look just like a boxer after his fight who is waiting to hear the result! Though, there’s no way means you will pass me by; The riot keeps going…

The end of 80s in Cologne; a vagabond musician.
hallucinogenic mushrooms
Two doses of psilocybin, the active ingredient in hallucinogenic mushrooms, eased people’s depression symptoms, researchers found.ALEXANDER_VOLKOV/ISTOCK/GETTY IMAGES PLUS

13 thoughts on “FIFTY+ YEARS LONELINESS V (P3)

  1. What a fabulous, heady trip Aladin! Thank you so much for sharing your stories and experiences with recreational drugs with us. Like millions of young ones I also dabbled with them and living in the countryside meant that come September every year, magickal mushrooms grew in large numbers.

    Hash, whether we were smoking or eating it, alongside drinking lots of cheap booze filled many of my teenage and young adult weekends. Like you, many fun times were had, alongside the occasional bad trip!

    I really enjoyed your honesty and openness about this time in yours and Al’s life. It was sad to read of your mother’s death. No wonder sex, drugs and music appealed so much as I guess you just wanted to f**k the pain away! Great quotes and images too, wonderfully weaved with the music of those years and there’s no need for shame when talking about the things we got up to while growing up.

    Good luck with your operation next week Hope your having a good weekend. Warm winter wishes, Deborah.

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    • you know what? I have certainly wrote this for you! honestly, I knew that you must have almost the same adventures as me. that’s what I call growing up within. your kind words and your understanding is like gold for me, though l have no idea how a stone could be so worth but just as a Metapher. you made my days and life. thank you my dear forever friend ❀ I wish you the best of all things in the world πŸ€— 😘😘

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  2. Elaine Mansfield

    I get this. You wrote it for me, too. From 1967 to 1970, Vic and I did lots of experimenting although we carefully avoided addictive drugs. Some of the psychedelic experiences were sacred openings and are still with me. We met a meditation teacher, astrologer, Jungian, philosopher who opened a metaphysical bookstore in our town and taught classes–for free. He wanted us to get the experience through meditation.

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    • I could bet you also belong to my list, dear Elaine. We were only not so lucky as you and dear Vic; the acid pills which we could buy were sometimes not the right ones. And the meditation was still not a theme in our group. It came later when I began with theatre and leaned yoga. And also true; thank goodness, we have still our experiences which opened some sacred doors with us.


  3. Thank you for this other moment from your past that you wanted to share with us. I was saddened by your mom’s death and impressed by your experiences with drugs, and happy to hear how you got out of them before they might become really dangerous or fatal. Many poets also used drugs to expand “the doors of perception” πŸ’–πŸ™πŸ’–

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